Pre-new year's reflection

Dear diary,

it's so not me to write down my new year's reflection in blog, but, since today i have nothing to do and i'm in a very 'sentimental' mood, thus there's this blog.

few days ago i chatted with a friend, usually it used to be a so ordinary topic that i forgot right after. but then, she asked me 'this year is full of new things for me: drinks, cigarettes, degree. how's yours?'. if i were in a classic thriller drama, i would suggest extra thunder and lightning struck above my head. point is: yes, i stopped typing (which used to be so easy) and thought. my! how's my year going? i don't even realize christmas is over and new year is just a few days ahead. and my year? i can't say it's my best. i haven't done anything valuable not to mention important. i haven't let out the best of me. i often let my outrage and hatred fill my emotion and boom... regret everything in the end.

regret. one word i hate the most. i swear to myself long time ago that i would NEVER regret a thing, cause everything has made myself me at present. but this year, i don't really like what i have formed myself into. i mean it. i'm losing my 'moxie' (amelia earheart in the Night at the Museum 2). the guy in the movie, Larry Daley, finally found his moxie by doing what he likes and being with the people he loves.

i kind of think the same way except sometimes i don't know if what i like is good for me and others; but the point about being with the people you love is totally true. this year (inspite of the regret thingy), thank God i got more chance to travel and explore the world in such a young age. travelling is one of the things i love the most. nevertheless, somehow i feel that doing what you like without the people you love (and the ones who love you) is just not enough. (ouch i just cut it there, it makes my homesick even worse)

well, bottom line is I MISS MY FAMILY, MY ROOM, MY FRIENDS, MY HOME!!!! no, that's not the real bottom line, that's just my real feeling ;p. bottom line of my pre-new year's reflection is: regardless where you are, what you like, and how you do the things you like; more important thing is --L-O-V-E--, cause only with that your happiness is complete. ;p

being able to go abroad and do things you like, that's cool.
being able to go somewhere with people you love, that's fun.
being able to go somewhere with people you love and people who love you, that's blessing.
being able to STAY with people you love and people who love you, that's eternal happiness. =) =D =) =D

God bless United States i.e. God bless US!!! haha.. amen